Mera naam neelam hai. Mai 25 saal ki khubsurat larki hoon. Bari –  bari chhatiyan aur patli kamar kisi ko bhi pagal kar dene ke liye  kafi hain. Main ne MBBS kiya hai. Meri posting Assam ke ek chhote se  kasbe ke Govt. Hospital me hui hai. Mai pichhle saal bahar se yahan ke  orthopedic ward men kaam kar rahi hoon.    Suru se hi mujhpe marne waalon ki koi kami nahin rahi hai. College ke  dino me bhi mere pichhe kafi larke pare the. Yahan hospital ke kai  doctor bhi mujhpe marte hain. Magar meri choice kuchh alag kism ki  hai. Main un parindon par apna ras nyochhawar karne me viswas nahin  karti jinka kaam hi foolon ka ras pee kar urjana hota hai..    Meri pasand ka aajtak koi bhi larka nahin mila. Pata nahin kyon mujhe  koi bhi pasand hi nahin ata. Mere ghar wale bhi mujhse paresaan the.  Kai larkon ki tasweeren bhi bhej chuke the. Magar maine na kar diya  tha.    Ekbar ek doctor ne andheri jagah par mujhe pakar kar jabardasti karne  laga meri chaatiyon ko kas kar masalne laga. Mai use dhakka maar kar  uski giraft se nikal gayi uske baad to uski who thukai ki ki meri  taraf dekhna bhi chhor diya.    Magar itni magroor larki aakhir kisike prem me par gayi. Aur uspar  apna sab kuchh nyochhawar kar diya.    Hua yoon ki ek din mai round par nikli thi. Shaam ke 6 o’clock ho  rahe the mere saath ek nurse bhi thi. Ek-ek patient ke paas ja kar  hum checkup kar rahe the. Ek bara haal tha kone ki taraf halka  andhera tha check karte karte mai jab kone ki taraf barhi to achanak  kisi kaam se nurse wapas laut gai. Mai akeli hi thi akhri patient  tha. Uske pair men dislocation tha. Mai uske paas pahunch kaar muayna  karne lagi. Chart dekhte hue maine uski taraf dekha. Who 30-32 saal  ka tandurust naujawan tha. Who bistar par peeth ke bal leta hua tha.  Chadar ko seene tak orh rakha tha. Uski report dekhte dekhte meri  najar uske kamar par padi. Uski kamar ke paas chadar tent ki tarah  utha hua tha. Aur uske hath apne ling par chal rahe the. Mai kuchh  pal tak ektak uske ling ke impression ko dekhti rahi. Who meri or  dikhta hua apne ling par hath chala raha tha. Mai ek dum ghabra  gai.aur bhagti hui kamare se nikal gayi.  Mera badan paseene se bheeg gaya tha. Mai wohi paas ke quarters me  rahati thi. Seedhe ghar jaakar thande paani se nahaya.    Pata nahi kyon man me ek gudgudi si hone lagi thi. Bar bar man wohin  par khinch kar lejata.    Kisitarah maine apne jajbaton par ankush lagaya. Lekin jaise jaise  raat barhti gayi mera apne upar se control hatta gaya. Aakhir mai  tadap kar wapas hospital ki or barh chali. Us samay raat ke 10.30 ho  rahe the chahal pahal kafi kum ho gay tha mai staff ki nazron se  bachti hui orthopedic ward me ghusi. Jyadatar patient so gaye the.  Mai idhar udhar dekhti hui akhri bed par pahunchi aur medical card  dekhne lagi. Naam likha tha suraj. Maine uski taraf dekha. Who wapas  usi condition me tha. Ling khara tha aur who uspar apna hath chala  raha tha. Mai dheere dheere sarakti hui uske paas pahunchi. Achanak  chadar ke neeche se uska ek hath nikla aur meri kalai ko sakhti se  pakad liya. Maine hath chudane ki koshi sh ki magar uska haath to  lohe ki tarah meri kalai ko jakada hua tha. Maine aas paas najar  daala sab ya to so rahe the ya sone ki koshish kar rahe the. Kisi ko  bhi khabar nahin thi ki kamre ke ek kone me kya jor mashakkat ho rahi  thi.    Usne mere haath ko chadar ke andar khinch liya. Mera hath uske tane  hue ling se takraya. Pure sharer me ek sihran si daur gai. Who  jabardasti mere hath ko apne ling par rakh diya. Maine hichakte hue  uske land ko apni mutthi me le liya. Ab who mere hath ko upar neeche  chalane laga. Mujhe lag raha tha mano maine apni mutthi me koi garam  loha pakad rakha ho. Uska ling kafi mota tha. Lambai me kam se kam  10″ hoga. Mai uske ling par hath chalane lagi. Usne dheere dheere  mere hath ko chhod diya. Magar mai usi tarah uske ling ko mutthi me  sakhti se pakad kar upar neeche hath chala rahi thi. Kuchh der baad  uska shareer tan gaya aur mere hathon par dher sara chipchipa veerya  udhel diya. Maine uska lund chod diya. Chadar se apna haath baahar  nikala. Pura hath gadhe safed rang ke veerya se sana hua tha. Usne  mera hath pakad kar apni chadar se ponchh diya. Mai hath chhuda kar  bhaag gayi. Ghar pahunch kar hee sans lee. Mere janghon ke beech  panty bheeg gayi thi. Maine apne hath ko naak ke paas le ja kar  sungha. Uski gandh abhi tak haathon me basi hui thi. Maine ek ungli  apne jeebh se chhuaya. Uske veerya ka taste achchha laga. Fir to sari  ungliyan hi chaat gayi.    Raat bhar mai karwaten badalti rahi. Jab bhi jhapki ayi uska chehra  saamne ajata tha. Sapno men who mere tan ko masalta raha. Raat bhar  bina kuchh kiye hi mai kai baar geeli hogayi. Pata nahin usme aisa  kya tha jo mera man bekaabu ho gaya. Jise jeetne ke liye achchhe log  apna sab kuchh daon par lagane ko taiyaar the who khud aaj paagal ho  gayi thi.    Jaise taise subah hui. Meri aankhen neend se aur khumari se bhari ho  rahi thi. Mai taiyaar ho kar hospital gayi. Round par nikali to mai  uske bed tak nahin jaa payi. Maine staff ko bula kar uske bare me  poochha to pata laga ki who gareeb insaan hai. Aur shayad uske ghar  me koi nahin hai kyon ki usse milne kabhi koi nahin ata.    Maine usko deluxe ward me shift karne ke order diye. Ward ka kharcha  apni jeb se bhar diya. Saab ke samne uske paas jaane me mujhe hichak  ho rahi thi. Mai atbiyat kharab hone ka bahana kar ke ghar chali  gayi. Sham ko hospital jaa kar pata laoga ki use deluxe ward me shift  kar diya hai. Mai logon ki najar bacha kar shaam ath baje ke aas paas  uske ward me pahunchi. Wahan maujood nurse ko maine bahar bhej diya,    ” Tum khana kha kar aao tab tak mai yaheen hoon.”    Who khushi khushi chali gayi. Mujhe dekh kar Suraj muskura diya. Mai  bhi muskurate huye uske paas pahunchi.    “kaise ho” maine poochha.    “tumhen dekh liya bus tabiyat achchhi ho gayi.”    Mera chehra sharm se lal ho gaya. Usne mera hath pakad kar apni or  khincha mai jaan boojh kar uske seene se lag gayi. Usne mere honthon  ko apne honthon se chhuliya. Mera poora badan thar thara raha tha.  Maine bhi apne honth uske honth se sata diye auer uske honthon ko  apne honthon me daba kar choosne lagi. Uske hath meri chhatiyon par  aagae. Aisa laga jaise inhin haathon ka mujhe ab tak intezar tha.  Naine uske hathon par apne hath rakh kar apni chhatiyon ko daba diya.  Who meri chhatiyon ko dabane laga. Mere hath chadar ke undar uske  pant ke jip se uljhe hue the. Maine jip khol kar hath ko andar dal  diya. Uska ling mere hath ki chuan se funfkaar utha.
 Mai use bahar  nikal kar sehlane lagi fir hathon se sehla sehla kar uska nikaal  diya. Mere hath fir geele ho gaye. Who meri chhatiyon se khel raha  tha. Mai hath bahar nikal kar uske samne hi apni jeebh se chatne  lagi. Haath me lage uske saare veerya ko apni jeebh se chat kar saaf  kar diya.    Adha ghanta ho chuka tha. Maine jaldi se apne kapde sahi kiye.
 Nurse  ke aate hi mai wahan se ghar bhag ayee.    Agle din nurse ko khane par bhej kar maine kundi band kar lee. Jaise  hi mai Suraj ke paas aayi usne mere chehre ko choom choom kar laal  kar diya. Mai uska ling nikal chuki thi. Is baar usne mere sir ko  pakad kar apne ling par jhuka diya. Mai ne shararat se honth bheench  liye. Who ling ko meri honthon par ragarne laga. Honth uske veerya se  geele hogaye. Maine apne honth khol kar uska ling apne munh me le  liya. Pahle dheere dheere aur baad me jor jor se choosne lagi. Kafi  der tak much maithun kar ke who mere sir ko pakad kar apne lund par  daba diya. Uska lund mere munh se hota hua mere gale ke andar pravesh  kar gaya. Uska ling phoolne laga tha. Mai saans lene ke liye  chhatpata rahi thi. Tabhi aisa laga jaise oske ling se garam garam  lava nikal kar mere gale se hota hua mere pet me pravesh kar raha  hai. Maine sir ko thoda bahar ki or khincha. Poora muhn uske veerya  se bhar gaya tha. Honthon ke kono se veerya bahar choo raha tha.  Maine pyaar se uski or dekhte hue saara veerya andar gatak liya. Kafi  time ho chukka tha. Mai daur kar bathroom me jaakar apna munh dhoi.  Baal & aur kapde sahi kar ke lauti.    “Mujhe to lagta hai tum maar hi doge” kahakar mai us se lipat kar  uske honthon ko choom li.    Thodi der me nurse a gai thi.    Isi tarah roj jab bhi mauka milta mai logon ki nazaron se bach kar  apne mahboob se milti rahi. Hum ek doosre ko choomte.,Sahlat  e the.  Who meri choonchiyon ko masalta tha, meri nipples se khlta tha. Mai  roj much maithun se uska nikal deti thi. Uska veerya mujhe bahut  achchha lagta tha. Us se jyada hum wahan kuchh kar nahin paate the.  Pakde jaane aur badnaami ka dar tha.    Hafte bhaer baad ek din mai wahan pahunchi to kamra khali paya.  Poochhne par pata laga ki usko discharge kar diya gaya hai. Mai kamre  me uske history sheet me sab jagah uska pata janne ki kosish ki magar  kuchh pata nahin laga. Meri haalat bawriyon jaisi ho gayi thi jisse  man lagaya wohi meri bewakoofi ke karan mujhse door ho gaya tha.  Maine  use har jagah dhoondha. Magar wo to aise gayab hua jaise Subah dhundh  gayab ho jati hai.    Maine jindagi me pahli baar kisi ladke ke liye roya. Meri saheli  rachna jo mere sath quarter share karti thi, usne bhi kafi khodne ki  koshish kiya magar maine kisi ko bhi kuchh nahin bataya. Maine  jindagi me pahli baar kisi se pyar kiya tha. Who garib tha lekin usme  kuch baat thi jo use sabse alag karti thi. Kuchh ho na ho mai to us  se pyaar karne lagi thi.
 Gharwaale pareshaan kar rahe the shaadi ke  liye. Were parents azaad khayalon ke the isliye unhon ne kah diya tha  ki mai jise chahe pasand karke shaadi kar loon. Kabhi kabhi mai  shochti ki kya who bhi mujhe chahta hoga? Agar haan to fir who kabhi  mujhse mila kyon nahin. Dhire dhire six months gujar gaye us mulakat  ko. Fir achanak hi who mila to mujhe diya tale andhera waali baat  yaad ayi. Ek din mai hospital ke liye nikli to achanak mujhe ek jana  pahchanachehra hospital ke samne ke bageeche me kaam karta hua dikha. ” Suno maali.” Uske ghoomte hi mai dhak se rah gayee, “tuuum?” samne  Suraj khada tha. Mera pyaar, mera chain. Mai ektak use dekh rahi thi.    “madam” suraj ne mujhe sote se jagaya.” Mai yahaan maali ka kam  karta hoon. Aap apne aap ko samhaliye nahinto koi bhi aadmi iska  galat matlab nikal sakta hai.    ” Mujhe apni galti kaa ahsaas hua. “Tum mujhe aaj shaam chhe baje  mere ghar par milna. Bahut jaroori kaam hai.. Aoge na? Tumhe meri  kasam.” kahkar mai apne aap ko samhaalti hui teji se hospital me  chali gayi.    Mujhe maaloom tha ki agar maine mur kar dekhliya to mai apni rulai  nahi rok sakoongi. Hospital me man nahin laga to tabiyat kharab ka  bahana bana kar mai bhag nikli. Aaj kisi kaam me man nahi lag raha  tha. Shaam ko Suraj aane waala tha mujhse milne. Uski taiyaari bhi  karni thi. Wapsi me mujhe Suraj nahin dikha. Mai Bazar jaa kar kuchh  saman khareed layi. Saman me ek jheena Reshmi gown. Khane peene ka  saman aur ek botal beer tha. Ek larki ke liye beer khareedna kitna  mushkil kaam hai aaj mujhe pata laga tha.    Baari mushkil se kisi ko paise dekar maine ek bottle beer mangaya.  Aaj mai uski poori tarah se swagat karna chahti thi. Sham chaar baaje  se hi mai apne mahbbob ke liye taiyaar hokar baith gayi. Haalka  makeup karke perfume lagaya. Fir transparent bra aur panty ke upar  naya reshmi gown pahan liya. Gulabi jheene gown ko pahanna aur nahi  pahanna barabar tha. Bahar se ek ek royan dikh Raha tha. Bistar par  saafed reshmi chaddar bichha diya. Room spray chaaron or spray kaar  diya. Kuchh rajnigandha ke sticks ek flower verse me bed ke sirhane  par raakh diya. Chhay baje tak to mai betaab ho uthi. Bar bar ghari  ko dekhti hui chahal kadmi kar rahi thi. 6.10 par door bell baja. Mai  daur kar darwaaje par gaayi. Peep hole se dkhkar hi darwaja kholna  chahti thi. Kyonki koi aur hua to mujhe is roop me dekhkar pata nahin  kya soche. Use dekh kar maine darwaja kholka use andar khinch liya.  Darwaaza band karke mai usse buri tarah se lipat gayi. Kiss karke  poora munh bhar diya.    ” Kahan chale gaye the? Meri ek baar bhi yaad nahin ayi?”    ” Mai yaheen tha magar mai jaan boojh kar hi aapse milna nahi chahta  tha. Kahan aap aur kahan mai. Chaand aur siyaar ki jodi achchhi nahin  lagti” maine uske munh par haath rakh diya.    ” kahbardaar jo mujh se door jane ka bhi socha. Aagar jaana hi tha to  aye kyun? Meri jindagi me hulchal paaida karke bhagne ki soch rahe  the.” Maine kaha,    ” Aur mujhe ye aap aap karna chhodo. Tumhaaare munh se tum aur tu  achchha lagegaa.”    « liken meri baat to suniye………”    ” baith jao” kahkar maaine use dhakka dekar sofe par bitha diya.  Maaine man hi man decide kar liya tha ki itna sab hone ke baad aab  mai Suraj se koi sharam nahin karoongi aur nirlajj hokar apni baat  manwa loongi. Mai uthi aur fridge se beer ki bottle nikaal kar uska  cork khola. Ek kaanch ke glass me udhel kar uske paas aayi. Glass me  ufanta hua jhaag mere jajbaaton ka udaharan pesh kar raha thaa. Mai  us se sat kar baaith gayee aur glass ko uske honthon se laga diya.    Usne meri or dekhte hue meri haathon se ek ghoont piya. Glass ko  uske hathon me pakda kar maai khaadi hogayi.    ” Tumhe mere yeh bahut achchhe lagte the na? ” maine apne breasts  ki taraf ishara kiya. Uske honthon ke bilkul paas aakar poochha.    ” khol kar nahin dekhna chahoge?” isse pahle ki who kuchh kahe maine  khade hokar ek jhatke me apne gown ko shareer se alag kar diya.  Wo ektak meri chatiyon ki or dekh raha tha. Mai uske paas aakar dono  pairon ko phaila kar uski god me baith gai. Uske sir ko pakad kar  aapni ek chaati par daba diya. “bra kholdo” maine uske kaano me phusphusate hue kaha. Magar use koi  harkat karta nahin dekh kar maine khud hi bra ko sharer se alag kar  diya. Aaj mai itni uttejit thi ki jaroorat padne se Suraj ko rape bhi  karne ko taiyaar thi.    ” Dekho ye kitne betaab hain tumhare honthon ke.” Kahkar maine uske  honthon se apne nipple sata diye. Pahle woh thoda jhijhka fir dheere  se uske honth khule aur mera ek nipple munh me pravesh kar gaya. Who  apne jeebh se nipple ke tip ko gudgudane laga.    ” aah haaan plsss. ” mai uske baalon me haath firate hue budbudane  lagi. Uske doosre haath ko aapne doosre breast par raakh kar dabaane  lagi. Kuchh der baad usne dusre nipple ko choosna shuru kar diya uske  haath mere badae par ghoom rahe the. Sparsh itna halka thaa maano  shaareer par koi rui fira raaha ho.    Kuchh der bad usne munh utha te hue kaha, ” Madam aab bhi samhal  jaiye ab bhi wakt hai. Ham me aaur aapme jameen asman ka firq hai.”  Mai ek jhatke se uthi. Apne shareer se akhri vastra bhi noch daala.  “Dekho is sharre ki ek jhalak pane ke liye kai log bechain rahte hain  aur aaj mai khud tumhare samne besharm hokaar nangi khadi hoon aur  tum mujh se door bhag rahe ho.    maine uske haath pakad kar utha diya aur lagbhag kheenchte hue  bedroom me le gai. Use bed ke paas kahda kaar ke mai uske kapdon par  toot padi. Kuchh hi der me who bhi meri hi halaat me agaaya. Maaine  use bistar par patak kar uspar chadh baithi. Uske sharer ke ek ek ang  ko choomne chaatne lagi. Uske nipples ko daanton se halke se kat  diya. Uske honthon se apne honth ragad te hue apna jeebh uske munh me  de diya. Woh bhi meri jeebh ko choosne laga. Mere haath uske ling par  fir rahe the. Maine ab apna dhyan uske ling par kar diya. Pahle uske  ling ko chooma fir use munh me le kar choosne lagi. Ling ka size badh  kar lamba aur mota ho gaya. Uska size dekh kar ek baar to mai sihar  gayi thi ki ye danav to meri choot ko phad kar rakh dega.    “baahut hi sshitaan hai ye. Isne mujhe aisa rog lagaya ki ab yeh mera  nasha ban gaya hai.”    Kafi der taak hum dono ek doosre ke badan se khelte rahe. Fir mai  uski taraf dekh kar boli, ” Aaj mai apna kaomarya tumhen bhent kar  rahi hoon. Isse mahngi koi cheej mere paas nahin hai. Please mujhe  ladki se aaj aurat bana do.”    Maine use chit litakar uska khada lund apne choot ke muhane paar rakh  kar jor lagai magar anari hone ke karan evam meri choot ka size  chhota hone ke karan ling andar naahin ja paaya. Maine fir apni kamar  uthakar uske ling ko apne hathon se set kiya aur sharir ko jor se  neeche kiya magar fir uska ling fisal gaya. Maine jhunjhla kar uski  or dekha.    “kaise aadmi ho tab se mai koshish kar rahi hoon aur tum chup chap  pade hue ho. Kya ho gaya hai tumhe.” Aab akhir usne apni jhijhak ko  khatm kar ke mujhe bistar par paatak diya. Meri tangon ko chaauda  kaar ke meri chut ko choom liya.    ” ye hua na mera sher! Masal do mujhe. Meri saari garmi nikaal do”  kafi der tak meri geeli choot par jeebh firane ke baad who utha. Mai  to uske jeebh se hi ek baar jhad gayi. Usne meri taangon ko utha kar  apne kandhe par rakha aur apne lingko meri tapakti choot paar rakh  kar ek jor daar dhakka mara.    ” aaaaaaaaaah uuuuuuuuiiiiiiii maaaaaaaa” uska ling rasta banata hua  age badhkar mere kaumarya ki jhilli par ja ruka. Aab usne ek aur jor  daar dhakka mara to poora lund mere andar phadta hua sama gaya. “ooooooof maaar hii daloge kyaaaa? Uuuuuiiiiiiiii maaaa margayi”  mai buri tarah tadapne lagi. Wwoh lund ko poora aandar daal kar  kuchh der rukaa. Dheere dheere mera dard gayab ho gaya.    Usne lund ko thoda bahar nikal kar wapas andar daal diya. Phir to  usne khoob jor jor se dhakke lagae. Mai bhi poori jor se neeche se  uska saath de rahi thi. Andar bahar andar bahar jabardast dhakke lag  rahe the. 45 min ke baad woh mere andar dher sara virya udhel diya.  Mai to tab taak teen baar nikaal chuki thi. Who thaak kar mere sharer  par let gaya. Mai to uski mardangi ki kayal ho chuki thi. Who bagal  me let gaya mai use halat me uske seene ke oopar apna sir rakh kar  uske seene ke baalon se khelne lagi.who mere baalon se khel raha tha.    ” Thank u” maine kaha “mai aaj bahut khush hoon. Mujhe chodnewala ek  jabardast ling hai. Jiske dhakke khakar to meri haalat patli ho gayi.  Magar khush mat hona aaj sari raat tumhari barabari karoongi.”  Woh muskura raha tha. Maine uski ankon me jhankte hue poochha,    ” aab bolo mujh se pyar karte ho? Dekho yeh chadar hum dono ke Milan  ki gawah hai.” Maine chadar par lage khoon ke dhabbon ki or ishara  kiya.  Usne sir hilaya.    “Mujhse shaadi karoge? Dhaat maai bhi kaisi pagli hoon aaj tak maine  to tumse poochha bhi nahin ki tum shadishuda ho ki nahin aur apna sab  kuchh tumhe de diya.”    ” agar mai kahoon ki mai shaadishuda hoon to ?” Usne apne honthon par  ek kutil muskaan late hue poochha.    ” To kya meri kismat. Ab to tum hi mere sab kuchh ho. Chahe jis roop  me mujhe sweekar karo” meri aankhen nam ho gayee.    ” Jab sab soch hi liya to fir tum jab chaahe pheron ka bandobast kar  lo. Mai apne ghar bhi khabar kar deta hoon.” Usne kaha.    ” Yesssss!” maine apne dono haath hawa me unche kar diye fir uspar  bhuki sherni ki tarah toot pari.. is baar who bhi muje apne oopar  khinch liya. Ek aur marathon round chala. Is baar mai uspar chadh kar  uske ling par chadhai kar rahi thi. Aab sharam kis liye ye to aab  mera hone wala shohar tha. Kafi der tak karne ke baad usne mujhe  chaupaya bana kar peeche se apna ling daal kar dhakke maarne laga.  Meri nazar sirhane ki taraf dressing table par lage mirror par gaya.  Badi shandar jodi lag rahi thi. Who peechhe se dhakke laga raha tha  aur mere bade bade uroz age peechhe uchhal rahe the. Mai position  change kar ke mirror ke samanantar agai. Uska mota kala ling meri  choot me jata hua kafi exciting lag raha tha. Mai ek ke baad ek kai  baar lagatar apna paani chhod di. Uske baad bhi who kafi der tak  karta raha. Fir usne dher sara veerya meri yoni me daal diya. Uska  veerya meri yoni se ufan kar bistar par gir raha tha. Who thak kar  mere upar gir pada. Hum dono paseene se lathpath ho rahe the. Kuchh  der tak ek doosre ko choomte hue lete rahe.  ” tum khush to ho na?” maine usse poochha.    ” tumsa saathi pa kar kaun nahi khush hoga.” Suraj ne kaha,    “har bachcha pari ke sapne dekhta hai magar mujh ko to sakchhat pari  mil gayee” . Fir hum dono saath saath nahaye. Taiyaar hokar mai khana  banakar use apne haathon se khilayi. Aur usne mujhe khilaya. Fir  wapas hum bedroom me agaye. Raat bhar round par round chalet rahe.  Subah tak mera to usne bura haal kar diya tha aisa lag raha tha mano  mujhe mathni me daal kar math diya ho. Choot ka haal to bahut hi bura  tha. Pahle hi Milan me itni ghisai to uske himmat todne ke liye kafi  thi. Laal hokar fool gayi thi. Fode ki tarah dukh raha tha. Subah tak  to mujhme uthkar khade hone ki taqat bhi nahin bachi thi. Subah 6.0  o’clock ko who utha aur taiyaar hokar nikal gaya. Jaane se pahle  mujhe honthon par ek chumban dekar uthaya.    “mat jao ab mujhe chhodkar” maine us se vinti ki.    ” pagal ladki hai” usne kaha, “pahle shaadi ho jaane di fir baandh  lena mujhe.”    ” Sahara dekar utha to sakte ho.”    Usne mujhe sahara dekar uthaya. Uske jaane ke baad mai sofe par dher  ho gayi. Subah mujh se milne meri ek matr saheli Rachna ayi.    “Kya hua meri banno?” maine apna haal sunaya to who bhi khush hui.  Maheene bhar baad hum dono ne ek saade smaroh me mandir me jakar  shaadi karliya. Mere gharwaalon ne samjhane ki koshish ki magar mera  nishchaya dekh kar shant ho gaye. Maine transfer ke liye apply kiya  jo ki jaldi hi agaya. Naye jagah join karne ke baad maine shadi ka  announcement kiya. Tabtak mai already 3 months pregnant thi. Rachna  ne bhi mere saath hi same jagah transfer ke liye apply kiya jo ki  manjoor hogaya. Suraj ne ek chhoti moti si nursery khol li.    meri shaadi ke  baad mera transfer doosre jagah ho gaya tha. Mare  saath meri pyaari saheli Rachna ka bhi transfer usi  jagah ho gaya tha jo ki humaare liye bahut hi khushi  ki baat thi. Sooraj ne naye jagah par ek nursery khol  li. Jo ki uski mahnat se achchha chal baitha.  Meri pehli pregnancy jo ki shadi se pahle hi ho gayi  thi miscarriage ho gaya tha. Hum dono bachchon ke  mamle me koi bhi jaldi baaji nahin karna chahte the.  Isliye humne kaafi suraksha ke saath hi sambhog kiya.  Rachna ki shaadi waheen paas ke ek forrest officer  Arun se ho gayi. Rachna U.P. se belong karti thi. Arun  bahut hi hansmukh aur rangeen mijaj aadmi tha. Uski  posting hamare hospital se 80 kms door ek jungle me  thi. Shuru shuru me to har doosre din bhag ata tha.  Kuchh dinon baad hafte me do din ke liye ane laga. Hum  chaaron apas me kaafi khule huye the. Aksar apas me  rangeele jokes aur dwiarthi samvad karte rahte the.  Uski najar shuru se hi mujh par thi. Magar na to maine  use kabhi lift diya na hi use jyada age badhne ka  mauka mila. Holi ke samay jaroor mauka dekh kar rang  lagane ke bahane mujhse lipat gaya tha aur mere kurte  me hath daal kar meri chhatiyon ko kas kar masal diya  tha. Uski is harkat par kisi ki najar nahin padi thi  isliye maine bhi chup rahna behtar samjha. Warna  bewajah hum saheliyon me darar pad jaati. Mai usese  jaroor ab kuchh katrane lagi thi. Magar wo mere nikat  ta ke liye mauka khojta rahta tha.  Rachna ko shaadi ke saal bhar baad hi maike jaana pad  gaya kyonki who pregnant thi.  Ab Arun kam hi ata tha. Akar bhi usi din hi wapas laut  jata tha.  Achanak ek din dopahar ko pahunch gaya. Saath me ek  aur uska saathi tha jiska naam usne mukul bataya. Unka  koi aadmi pedh se gir pada tha. Backbone me injury  thi. Rasta kharab tha isliye use lekar nahin aaye.  Mujhe saath le jane ke liye aye the. Maine jhatpat  hospital me inform kiya aur Sooraj ko bata kar apna  saman le kar nikal gayi. Nikalte nikalte do baj gaye  the. 80 kms ka fasla cover karte karte hume dhai  ghante lag gaye. Hu teeno sumo me age ki seat par  baithe the. Dono ke beech me mai fansi hui thi. Rasta  bahut ubar khabar tha. Hichkole lag rahe the. Hum ek  doosre se bhid rahe the. Mauka dekh kar Arun beech  beech me mere ek stan ko kohni se daab deta. Kabhi  janghon par haath rakh deta tha. Mujhe tab laga ki  maine samne baith kar galti ki thi.  Hum shaam tak wahan pahunch gaye. Mareej ko checkup  karne me shaam ke six o’clock ho gaye. Yahan sham  kuchh jaldi ho jati hai. November ka maheena tha  mausam bahut romantic tha. Magar dheere dheere badal  ghirne lage the mai jaldi apna kaam nipta kar raat tak  ghar laut jana chahti thi.  “itni jaldi kya hai? Aaj raat yahin ruk jao mere  jhopde me.” Arun ne kaha magar mere tarer kar dekhne  par who chup ho gaya.  “chalo mujhe chod aao.”maine kaha.  “chal re Mukul, madamme ko ghar chhod ayen.”  Hum waps sumo me waise hi baith gaye aur return  jeorney shuru ho gaya. Mai peechhe baithne lagi thi ki  Arun ne rok diya.  “kahan peechhe baith rahi ho. Samne a jao. Baten karte  huye rasta gujar jayega.”  “lekin tum apni harkaton par kaboo rakhoge warna mai  Rachna se bol doongi.” Mine use chetaya.  “Are us Hitler ko mat batana nahin to who meri achchhi  khasi ragging le legi.”  Mai uski baat sun kar hansne lagi. Aur mai uski  chikni chupdi baton se phans gayee.Achanak moosladhaar  bearish shuru ho gayi. Junle ke andhere rashton me  aisi barsaat me gadi chalana bhi ek mushkil kaam tha.  Achcnak gadi jungle ke beech me jhatke khakar ruk  gayee. Arun torch lekar neeche utra. Gadi check kiya  magar koi kharabi pakad me nahin ayee. Kuchh der baad  wapas a gaya.who poori trah bheeg chukka tha.  “kuchh nahin ho sakta.” Usne kaha”chalo neeche utar  kar dhakka lagao. Ho sakta hai ki chal jaye.”  “magar….barsaat…”mai bahar dekh kar kuchh hichkichai.  “nahin to jab tak barsaat na ruke tab tak intezar  karo”usne kaha”ab is barsaat ka bhi kya bharosa. Ho  sakta hai saari raat barasta rahe. Isiliye tumhhen  raat ko waheen rukne ko kaha tha.”  Mai neeche utar gayee. Barsaat ki parwah na kar mai  aur Mukul dono kafi der tak dhakke marte rahe magar  gadi nahin chali. Raat ke aath baj rahe the. Mai poori  tarah geeli ho gayee thi. Mai peechhe ki seat par  baith gayi. Arun andar ki light on ki. Maine ruansee  nazaron se Arun ki taraf dekha. Arun back mirror se  mere badan ka avlokan kar raha tha. Chhatiyon se sari  srak gayi thi. Safed blouse aur bra barsaat me bheeg  kar pardarshi ho gayee thi. Nipple saaf saaf najar  aarahe the. Maine jaldi se apni chhatiyon ko sari se  chhipa liya. Usne bhi light band kar dee. Raat andhere  men do gair mardon ka sath dil ko dubane ke liye kafi  tha.  Kuchh der baad barsaat band ho gayi magar thandi hawa  chalne lagi. Bahar kabhi kabhi janwaron ke awaj sunai  de rahi thi.Arun aur Mukul gadi se nikal gaye. Unhon  ne apne apne wastra utar liye aur nichod kar sokhne  rakh diye. Mai thand se kaanp rahi thi. Sharam ki  wajah se geele kapde bhi utar nahin paa rahi thi.  Arun mere pass aya “dekho neelam ghup andhera hai. Tum  apne geele vastra utar do.” Arun ne kaha.”warna thand  lag jayegi.” 
